Navigating through Self-Criticism¶
My job is to get better at things.
Cracking an interview is not in my hand. There are tons of other factors involved.
As long as I’m working on getting better at things I wasn’t good before, I’m doing my job.
Trying and failing is a major part of getting better. In fact, identifying where I fail is an integral part of getting better at it.
So I should reward failing as well - cause it means I did try. I did work on my goal of getting better.
As long as I’m working on it, I should feel proud.
And the fact that it bothers me that I am failing at things - means I do care a lot about this tiny little goal of mine.
So I just gotta dust myself off and try again. It might need more time but as long as I come out of it being better at things - I did my job.
It is “one of the lies”. But it’s a lie I need right now. It’s a tool to keep myself sharp. I am at my best when I’m in the “holy fuck that sounds interesting, let me try” mood.
Trick to keep me working at it - when things go fuzzy and emotions are taking over, think out loud. It’s the steering wheel.